Is Dad right?

Lights out Alice!

As usual, in this vacation period my brain is going on hyperdrive and I suddenly have more ideas and things to learn and explore than I could actually achieve in a decade when I actually only have a month's time.

I decided to open up to my dad to get his views and sort of a go-ahead to prioritise myself first and use the vacation period to do new things instead of spending quality time with them. I know it sounds selfish of me and it most probably is, but I think that spending time at home will make me lazy and will bound my imagination or go out and explore attitude. 

As a person who pledged loyalty towards my parents for as long as I remember, it just sucks to realize that I have turned around and become the same person that I pledged I would never become (this is a trend since I always loathed MBA and have just completed my masters in it). I am actually now contemplating putting a futile rat-race called "career" in corporate over taking care of my parents and responsibilities, something 

Here are the list of things that my dad pointed out as to why I am not suited towards starting up on my own right now (or ever):

• We don't have any financial leg to stand on and he cannot bail me out again
• I have a loan to repay and hence can no longer afford to take rash decisions
• I take up too many things and never complete them
• I don't have the acumen and the consistency that is required to start up on my own
• I should bow out now and settle at the level I have gotten to and accept the given level as my place in the world
• I don't have the sharpness and shrewdness for running a business. 
• I am too emotional. I will never be able to think of the profit or the bigger picture and will spend too much time thinking of people at the expense of the larger picture

Largely, what he was trying to hint directly at was the fact that starting up requires a bit of detachment that will sacrifice people and the short term for long term gain. I don't think I will be able to do that. I cannot run over people. I care too much.

Next, starting up is risky. A salaried job in the private sector is a safe job with a mapped out career path. The only downside is that is a soul-sucking proposition with zero satisfaction out of life. On one hand, he is right that a job should in the end remain just that, a job. It should not take over one's life. But on the other hand, I am far too emotional and passionate an individual to be able to survive any amount of time doing something that I don't believe in.