There you go...you did it again you dumb fart

Well Lights out Alice!

I did it again. I F***ing went ahead and shot myself in the foot again. I messed it up all over again.

Not sure, mostly because I am weak, but I had a bad day which was made worse by the choices I made and the stupid statements I made. Usually when I run my mouth, it just causes small amount of grief, to which I am not used to. This time, I screwed it up big time. Who am I kidding actually, I always mess up royally.

You know the stupid shit that I did. I hurt the other person. The one thing that I always told I would never do. I freaking went ahead and did it. Who talks to another person like they are always sad and it is always gloomy and bad? I do and I am dumb enough to think that it is the right approach to things. I don't know how irreparable things are but I don't think sorry is going to cut it this time. 

Tell me you dumb fart, why did you do this...you already knew you were having an awful day, you also hit your head and most importantly, you fought with your parents earlier in the day. After the mid afternoon squabble with parents, it has been pretty much downhill after that. I screwed it up big time. I knew that I was pressing the buttons of my mother when she was already writhing in pain and I still continued to poke her on it. Obviously she was pissed.

I couldn't say it on your face because I am a phattu 225, but I am sorry for the hurt I inadvertently caused by implying that there is something wrong even though I was the one who made the speech otherwise just the other day. What a bloody damn idiot. Who is stupid enough to do this to hurt another person? Why am I so dumb? Why can't I just stay in my lane? Why did I want to go ahead and feel?

BLOODY DAMN IDIOT I say Alice!