Funny thing Alice!
It's funny how heartbreak leads to wisdom, heartache leads to increased cognition and break-ups lead to sensitization towards other person's feelings. The common theme here is that you have to go through these painful moments to find clarity and personal growth. I think this is a great source of conundrum for people like me who would rather never get into any human connection than be a source of hurt for themselves or for others. But this increased cognition and awareness state while being more understanding only comes in these moments of pain and every writer or poet would want to have more such moments to give themselves more opportunities to write better.
At what cost though? At what point are you just seeking pain for the sake of content and not for life experiences? At what point do you inadvertently align yourself towards heartbreak so that you can write better? If the key to unlocking deeply personal and relatable writing content is sad moments, do we actively or sub-consciously pursue it?
This situation is especially funny for me Alice because I had previously decided to wall myself off and here I am years down the line, leaving myself vulnerable in front of people I am seeking affection from them, knowing very well that they are not looking at me the same way, waiting to be hurt and broken. Does this mean I am seeking pain? Does this mean that I only try in areas where failure is all but guaranteed and then mope around on failing and then blame myself for trying?
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