Lights out Alice!
Time is there for wasting. Work fills the time that you have. It gets worse if you are a procrastinator as regardless of the time you get, you will always be struggling at the eleventh hour to get the task done. The biggest victim of this self decimating phenomenon is your discipline. Your good habits are the first thing that come across the chopping block when you are a habitual procrastinator. This squarely applies to me and this thought came to me as I am sitting in the morning around 6, contemplating my idiotic decision set that led me to a place where even though I had one full day of holiday, I still could not finish the syllabus for today's exam and hence have to weigh between going for a bit of exercise or staying back and finishing the pending chapter. Obviously, my mind is telling me to stay back but in reality there is no better refresh or reset button other than exercising. A body and soul cleanser like no other, it is one of the few things that actually centers me and calms me down from my usual anxious state. The state in which I am constantly running from something, running towards something, pretending to be someone I am not and don't really know where I belong.
You know what is really funny, Alice? I have been in this anxious state of mind for so long, I actually prefer it this way and feel that this is the best way to stimulate better thoughts or prepare better for a task. Which is sad since it implies that I will always be running and will never feel at ease when sitting down or taking a break. Or I could turn it around, learn to walk when I am tired of running, learn to jog when I cannot run, learn to start when I just had to stop.
Lights out Alice!
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