Lights out Alice!
I am not sure what I wanted to write today, but I wanted to come to this page and pen my thoughts, however scarce and scattered they might be today. Something that Tavish mentioned when we were having tea that struck me. He mentioned that sitting down together and having tea that was freshly prepared by me in an induction cooker in hostel was a slice of Kolkata where people would have tea as part of their morning ritual before the rustle and bustle of daily life began. It especially struck me because that is something that I sub consciously try doing. I try anchoring myself and my mind by bringing back habits that remind me of home. Habits that made up my day and centered me. This helps me cope with my crippling anxiety and destresses me. As usual, it is just another way of making myself at ease regardless of the location I am in.
Needless to say, I do miss my parents. I lament the fact that my elder sister is leading such a busy life of a consultant that she has no time in her life to stand and stare at the bountiful and endless possibilities every day has to offer. She has no time to stand and stare. What I regret even more is the fact that slowly and slowly my life is also headed in that path and I am struggling to carve out time to center myself so that I do not build up stress in my head. But then the counter view point is that I am imagining situations and cases that hasn't happened yet and am suffering in an imagined reality. Why should I worry about something that hasn't happened yet, especially because there is very little chance that it will happen the way we planned it.
Anyhoo, toodloo, gotta go Alice. Hope to catch up with you soon. Lights out!
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