Now that its over...

Lights out Alice!

Its over! Although according to her it had never really begun, or the fact that even for me the writing was on the wall for over a week now, it is now officially over. Some remnants do linger on, but by and large it is over.

No, it is not what you would think Alice. It was still one of the better things to happen to me. I gave it my best shot and although I couldn't win her over and she never saw me the way I saw her, I still swoon over her, love her eyes and fall blindly whenever I see her in front of me. It is a good thing thankfully, that we will be parting ways in less than 10 days' time as I could not stand to see her in any kind of pain or hurt in front of me. I would run back and try to make it better, which would actually cause the exact opposite and just cause a world of hurt, for both her and for me, and as far as I am concerned, it was getting pretty painful. 

Now that its over, I want to list down some points that blew me over about her so that I can come back and check with myself over time if these points were really the case or was I so head over heels that I was just blinded and could only see through rose tinted glasses.

1. That smile...oh that face and that smile. Shit...whenever I visualize that face, damn I just fall all over again.

2. Those childlike actions, an unique blend of maturity and childish behaviour. She is considerate, yet stubborn, careful yet playful and oh...the best human being you could ever meet if she ever shows you her inner true side. Sadly, something that really pains me is the fact that she has been through a world of hurt previously which means that she keeps up a lot of walls. I know it is hypocritical of me to talk about people having walls, but for me, that true version of her was the most beautiful and happy thing I could ever set my eyes upon.

3. Never fails to care for others. Sadly, this is also her kryptonite. But damn, I did not know or think that such a kind soul could exist, one who goes to such lengths that they are ready to cause pain to themselves, if it can help another person.