Patience or lack of thereof

Lights out Alice!

Something that I have mentioned time and again that I need to cultivate and that I deeply lack is patience. I have seen it time and again that Patience is miraculous but requires a lot of, well, patience. Regret is mostly there in my life to throw the same phrase again and again, "If only I had held on/ been a bit more patient/ tried a little bit harder..."

Not just in anything I do, but in my approach as well. I am impatient in that I make plans but do not put in the effort that is required to execute the plans. Get impatient. Start thinking that I am not doing enough. Forget about the original plan. Start from scratch. Spend too much time making plans again. Realize mid-way that I had made the same plans before. Lose steam and repeat cycle.

The few times that I see things were the times in which I did get what I was planning to achieve, if not more. Not saying that my expectations have to be met every time and that I need to win all the time, because that's exactly the impatient approach. I can take my time, I can wait to see how it unfolds and I NEED to put in the effort. 

Takeaways (aka to myself: listen here, you shit):

• Execute
• You can't do everything
• Give it time
• Put in the effort
• Define your own metrics
• Set in stone your goals and what is driving you, not related to anybody else
• What do you want out of life?

The last one is very important. I can run, I can run faster or burn myself out anytime...but for what? What's the cause? Why is it important to me? Why am I pursuing this? Do I like the process or just want the outcome because I need to be okay with the process as well

WHAT'S MY WHY?

WHAT'S DRIVING ME?

WHAT ARE MY GOALS?

WHAT ARE MY METRICS?