What an inspirational quote from Community, Season 1, episode 25. I find it funny and also exhilarating that sit-coms and movies have taught me more about life and doing the right thing than real life actually has. Out there in the real world, it is always about self interest and fulfilling one's owns needs, even at the expense of another. Doesn't matter if the world is a zero sum game, you are supposed to treat it like one anyways.
Update 29.01.23:
Talking to people is just exhausting for me. Even more so if they are stressed because for one reason or another, I take it personally and absorb all that negativity in me, mostly because I care. This means that I feel really tired after a conversation, a conversation that in some cases helps (or at least I hope so, but I don't think it is the case) put a person in somewhat of a better frame of mind. I need time to recover from any and all conversations and human interactions and this means that I end up wasting my day and to-do list for others, and they don't even care. They just take it for granted and assume that it is "normal". To be fair, bringing my angle into every conversation is a pretty shitty, selfish and narcissistic thing to do but I really hope that I am allowed to start thinking of myself when it starts affecting me and getting to my head. I don't know if the other person is able to understand my need for a break to recover and would provide the necessary time and space or would think of it is as "running away" or getting scared easily. Regardless, I know that if I need the space to think or the time to get shit in my life sorted, I will get it done...or at least I hope so Alice!
I am not sure if I will be in one piece after MBA Alice because the last few months have taken a toll on me. This is bad. I am not able to gauge how bad, but it is worse in the sense that currently I am not able to take the time to recover and it is just building up day by day.
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