That is a fact. How our emotions work is even weirder.
Currently, I am reeling from a unreciprocated wave of emotion that is wreaking havoc in my control systems.
My behaviour generally pushes people away and anytime someone sees through that BS, I mistake it as affection which could be nothing more than kindness. I have made this mistake before hence my blanket reaction to this has always been that I am wrong and I will contain my emotion to let the feeling pass, regardless of all the chaos it is causing in me. My heart would like to believe that this time it is different, my brain blanket applies the fact that it is never the case and I will never be good enough for anybody, which slowly but surely is the overarching feeling that every other fibre of my being is coming to terms to and has accepted as axiom.
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