Lights out Alice!
I have been pretty loud about the fact that my current job and especially the sector that it is in is something that I am totally not interested in. I am doing it because of responsibilities and also the niggling feeling that in reality most corporate jobs are soul sucking and debilitating in some way or the other. Since I haven't had a ground breaking idea yet, notwithstanding the lack of capital, and also the simple fact that I am not intelligent enough to pursue pure research, I am left with sticking it out in corporate.
The travelling part of the job I like. Currently I am on my way from Azamgarh to Varanasi in UP. Obviously I have to mention the added disclaimer that I am travelling in style (private cab) and not in public transport which takes away the stress of maintaining time and also survive overcrowding.
Overlooking a field of wheat, on the highway, sun setting on the horizon is my version of a pretty evening.
The secret although mandatory ingredient is that I have mostly covered what I needed to do. Plus in my head, as long as I am doing something, I am justifying my worth, without which the guilt of not giving my best eats away at me and leaves me with debilitating anxiety.
Coming back to the pretty view at hand. Vast open tracts of cultivated land. Highlights of yellow in a sea of green. Traffic filled highways. Cows and people flouting norms blatantly allows for the drive to be anything but straight forward, which at least keeps it from getting mundane.
Currently, I don't know if the confounding variable is the fact that I have covered my goal for the day and also that I am on the move which is also in effect being on the job that is contributing to the feeling of satisfaction or the scenery. Nature, preferably rolling nature, provides for a blissful and anxiety reducing experience, something that soothes
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