Why am I so afraid of slowing down?

The moment it starts becoming routine, alarms start going off, code red, burn everything, start from scratch, do a evaluation of everything that is currently being done, label as good or bad habit, make a list of new good ones to incorporate and the bad habits to break. Plans put in place for growth. What yo do in the next 3 months, next 6 months. Account for the struggle, the lack of motivation and how I plan to push through when it gets tough. Good job. We are now back on the right track, I tell myself. I can take a break now....and that's it.