What is the right way to choose?

Lights out Alice!

Sometimes I think that I am not made for being with people. This fear is real and has manifested itself big time now that I am on the receiving end of unfettered attention.

But it would be ironic if I stop at this level given how I keep telling people to dive deeper and find the root cause.

The next level that has come around is the situation itself. Usually I am used to being told no and being the one that has to work towards getting the other person to like them. I have to "accept" them for who they are and get them to see what I am, a marketing pitch of sorts. This also creates the illusion in my head that the other person would be a good addition and it would be worthy to have them in my life. In my current situation, the other person is not a chase, they are there. Furthermore, they are pretty open about their feelings towards me. There is nothing for me to help fix. No goal.

Is that why there is no attraction?

What is it that people call butterflies and blinding attraction? Is that just the thrill of the chase? Or is that real?

I compare and ask myself this question over and over again. My gut tells me that this is not a good fit, but that idiot organ does not give an explicit reason why. My brain on the other hand, sees the potential that this person has and is excited in sharing a future with them.

The other thought that floods my brain is what if I am not meant for any person. I am definitely attracted, somewhat (maybe, I don't know what is the right way) to the opposite gender and we can rule out me being gay.