Lights out Alice!
Whoever must have created us must be pretty disappointed in the way we CHOOSE to use our brains. The unchangeable human nature to find the negative in any situation is such a morose way of functioning that sometimes it gets in the way of our own happiness.
To be fair, the issue lies deeper:
- I don't know how to be happy
- Actually, I know it is okay to be happy, but I feel like if I do not acknowledge it, it won't count and I don't have to face future hardships
- What if I am happy right now and I actually chose to live it and never face this kind of happiness again?
- Counter: What's the point of holding on to something that can never be held, clutching on desperately to something that was never solid enough to be grabbed at in the first place? Time passes, memory fades, wounds heal; everything moves on, so why as humans do we hold on to a memory, a connection that wasn't meant to be, an opportunity that was never right for us, a construct of our imagination that selectively construes the message that all we were hoping for was there in our past but has now eluded us because of our choices. No, at this point, we need to remind our brain that it is playing tricks on us. It is selectively telling us the things that we do not want to hear (but actually do) to make us feel bad about our choices. It is our brain WANTING TO FEEL BAD.
- Counter: What is superbly infuriating and frustrating me is the fact that even though over 90% of my life is PRETTY STONKING great, I am messing up my mental space by caring about the 10% that is currently out of whack. WHAT A SHIT thing to do...why are our human heads wired to focus on misery and completely ignore the awesomeness surrounding us. I have seen this time and time again. Whenever I am in a situation where everything is pretty decent, the situation giving half a chance to be happy and
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