Taking that next step

In the end, all this is just an excuse to do the work. To get somewhere, at my low level of intelligence, it is just sheer hard work that is required. Till that happens...

Pretty sure I have touched on this before, but hope (or hopium if you are a Ferrari fan) is a pretty powerful drug.

Hope that something changes.

Hope that it all works out.

Hope that somehow it will all make sense one day.

Hope that we are going to make it.

If you look at it from a rational POV, just in India, today we have over 140 Crores and whatever I will do (given my below average intelligence) can be done better and faster by over a crore people. Not to forget that there are enough people who are smarter and more deserving and have just been undone by sheer luck.

Whatever I maybe, it has very little to do with me and everything to the opportunities afforded to me by my parents and sheer luck of things working out in my favour.

However, you need a bit of hopium for you to get off the couch and get your rear to work.  You cannot be perfectly rational and also reach that next level. You need to believe, especially when the numbers and people around you are against it.