Complacency and then some...

 I might act like I am trying to wage a war against complacency but in reality it is all window dressing, a desperate rouse created to fool thine own head into believing that actual effort is being made in becoming better and not just wasting time.

What really gets my goat on most days is when I doom scroll or switch between pointless apps, random anecdotes or anything that occupies head, wastes time and erodes intelligence.

What gets my goat even further is how I waste time when I have it and then make plans that I have no positive concrete effort towards achieving. How am I so okay with underperforming on a daily basis?

Is it my restlessness or why does my brain first prioritize taking a break and binging on mind numbing content over actually putting the effort and getting anything done? It is really laughable that some monstrous effort, put a long a time ago is something that deserves a break even after all these years. Just sucks that mind actually constructs and believes these lies.

Well, that just about sums up complacency and procrastination. I hope to be better than all this...sadly, I haven't.