I don't want it bad enough

 Lights out Alice!

The obvious is now becoming a bit more obvious given that I see myself letting a golden opportunity slip right through. I have been given a few days off and instead of utilizing it in catching up on the Analytics course I keep boasting to everyone about, I am procrastinating and doing loitering around wasting my time. Oh how I rue this bad habit of mine. I am absolutely certain that this lack of intent, dedication and application towards getting things done is what has historically been my downfall and will continue to keep me from actually getting anywhere in life. 

Oh how I hate how we let go and start becoming lazy in life and I especially hate how one just starts demanding things out of others and society like an entitled prick. I saw glimpses of this pathetic behaviour in me today. I hate myself for being a sellout, for being a prick, for boasting and for procrastinating all the good time away. 

Dude...stop boasting and start actually working on stuff and making things happen.

Don't be the pfaffer you so claim to despise.

Don't you ever forget what got you so far: HARD WORK

Those who rise to the top consistently work hard. They never stop pushing. They never get complacent. They always demand more. There is always things to be learnt and lessons to be completed. Stop making a list and leaving it there. Start executing the list. It all adds up. Every hour. Every bit. The more you waste your time, the deeper a rabbit hole of failure you are spiralling towards.

Break your habit. Break the cycle. Don't give in when it gets tough. Don't give up at the slightest discomfort, or at any level of discomfort for that matter. Just keep going. Just keep grinding. Do take feedback of the quality of work being done and increase it over time but keep going on. Make the tough choices. Live in discomfort, stop being comfortable. Keep learning. Nothing is given and certain but the only thing that will lead you to the success that you one day expect is by maximizing the opportunities every day, day after day, without fail or expectation.

Can I work harder? 

Can I break the cycle of being a procrastinator?

Can I reach the goals I set for myself daily?

Sorry for letting you down Alice!