What it means to be a dreamer?
Yes, I know the irony in the statement. I say I would like to work independently but I very well know, proven through data that I am bad at getting anythign done when there is no deadline. I need a goal, I need a reason to function or do anything.
But, despite the contradiction, after a gruelling day of work where there is a tight deadline or a steep learning curve (best days are those wherein I have to learn something new as well as interesting), when I sit back, I feel satisfied. Satisfied that the day was justified. That I have earned the right to be in the place I am, which is only because of luck and the people around me. I am baffled at how average I am and how entitled I am. Entitled, not in an arrogant way, but in a way of getting opportunities that others do not get.
A dreamer. Cool weather. A good view outside, be it sloping landscapes or overlooking lush greenery or overlooking the rest of the city from the window of a tall building. Having hope. Hope that I can improve.
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