Lights out Alice!
I made a mistake yesterday night. A big one. A blast from the past. I reacted irrationally and lashed out on another person for no apparent reason and was massively rude. I don't know what sequence of events led to me acting like a jerk, but I did and to say I am not proud of it would be an understatement.
I don't know why I chose to build up anger and frustration in me for no reason, especially because I chose to live in a way that pushes people away and then am frustrated because I feel lonely. I don't get it, am I dumb or am I an idiot? When in a crowd, I can't wait to get away and get back to my mind palace, but yesterday, I acted irrationally and started judging and having preconceived notion about the third person in our project group, which led me to dismiss anything that they pitched, regardless of it being a good or a bad idea. This led to me being overly rude and jerk-like in my behaviour, especially when this was not at all required and could have been easily avoided.
Hope I stop making stupid mistakes like this Alice!
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