Lights out Alice!
I am in midst of a battle with my mind over control of my body (don't ask who is fighting my mind, because i don't know too). And it is safe to say, like it is the recurring theme of most of my blogs, i am losing.
I can't convince myself otherwise. On one hand i am this forgiving, rational guy who weighs his actions for their consequences and on the other hand there is this outlaw who is hell bent on breaking every sane responsibility/work that makes life worth living.
I am not good. I keep on falling into the same pitfalls of lazy and procrastinating habits that i possessed a few years ago during my high school. Even though they say that people change, i don't think it is that easy to change someone's habit. Believe me, i am trying, although not hard enough is something that i will concede to.
All this brings back are scary memories of my high school failure in performing academically. I knew stuff, same as i do now, am interested in learning a lot more, but when there is a question paper and an hour or three to solve them, i am unable to perform.
The worst part is that i am sitting here realizing this, yet someone it is not motivating enough for me to stop all the idiocies that i have been doing. Call this being born with a great family or wealthy family, i have been spoilt with everything that i needed in my life.
This makes me complacent, prone to failure and giver upper.
This makes me sad, yet i must say that Lights Out Alice!
I am in midst of a battle with my mind over control of my body (don't ask who is fighting my mind, because i don't know too). And it is safe to say, like it is the recurring theme of most of my blogs, i am losing.
I can't convince myself otherwise. On one hand i am this forgiving, rational guy who weighs his actions for their consequences and on the other hand there is this outlaw who is hell bent on breaking every sane responsibility/work that makes life worth living.
I am not good. I keep on falling into the same pitfalls of lazy and procrastinating habits that i possessed a few years ago during my high school. Even though they say that people change, i don't think it is that easy to change someone's habit. Believe me, i am trying, although not hard enough is something that i will concede to.
All this brings back are scary memories of my high school failure in performing academically. I knew stuff, same as i do now, am interested in learning a lot more, but when there is a question paper and an hour or three to solve them, i am unable to perform.
The worst part is that i am sitting here realizing this, yet someone it is not motivating enough for me to stop all the idiocies that i have been doing. Call this being born with a great family or wealthy family, i have been spoilt with everything that i needed in my life.
This makes me complacent, prone to failure and giver upper.
This makes me sad, yet i must say that Lights Out Alice!
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