Monday, 24 October 2016

Am i heading towards self inflicted doom?

Lights Out Alice!

Am i heading towards a crash?
Am i going to implode?
Is my #1 priority still my studies, because my actions are showing that my priority is organizing an event, which, many people tell me won't help my career at all.

I have put more time on this event than would be safe for a side project. This has taken over my priorities and my schedules are often woven around the event work that i have.

This leaves me in a bit of a dilemma, since i often have to sacrifice time spent on studies for clearing out pending event work. It is a vicious vortex that has sucked me in its eye and i am unable to see clearly.

I am denting my chances for a technical future and moreover, for the first time in all the time i have undertaken event management, i feel like i am doing injustice to my studies.

It is a horrible sinking feeling in my stomach that is telling me every second that it is not right, yet i have to stay true to my commitments and see the event out, not just halfheartedly or for the sake of doing it, but the fact that i have given my word to the competition and its head.

But this also brings me to my next dilemma, how do i continue like this? Surely, it can't go on like this. Something has to give, and till now it has been my marks. I desperately want to change that.

Lights Out Alice! Sleep well tonight for there lay many sleepless nights to come.

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