Snap out of the Habit

Lights out Alice!

Break out of the habit, let go of the mistakes that you have committed but promise yourself that you will not commit them again. Breaking off a habit is tough, but breaking out of a bad habit is even worse.

It is not easy and the pain of falling back into the habit is even worse, worse because you thought the worst was over and that you had come out on top. But the brevity of the victory is overthrown only by the pain of being an addict. You thought that you had it all under control, but it is the addiction that controls you. You are just a pawn, that is a given a shiny sword into a battle with cannons. This being the first time you were given a sword so shiny that you fail to realise the futility of the battle and the enormous risk of death.

No, i can beat it, i resisted the urge once and so can do it again. Just because you were unscathed the last time around doesn't mean that this time you are going to be equally lucky. If you get out of a habit that is bad, RUN! Run as fast as you can as far as you can from that habit. If you don;t change your environment that drove you into the habit in the first place, you are never going to get out of the habit. So, please snap out of it, for your sake and mine and run away from it. It will only kill you inside out. It is a slow poison that grips your life in an iron-clad fist and never lets go.

Please, snap out of it!

The summer of opportunites

"No, you will not be able to succeed. You will just burn through money and have your hopes and dreams dashed. Don't do it. Quit right now."

Lights out Alice!
One looks forward to the moment when the light cracks through the never ending darkness to keep going through struggles in life. "Yes, it will all be worth it in the end", that's what we keep telling ourselves. Sadly though, sometimes (actually,a lot of the times) the light just turns out to be a entrance bulb to another dark room. Another struggle, another fight.

My fight is with latency, with inability, with indecision, with laziness, with me. I am fighting myself. If i wasn't already hard to control, there are these temptations that surround me and make it just that bit harder.

I have also learned the dark art of lying to myself and pretending that i haven't. So lying subconsciously, if you want to be specific. " I really don't need to play right now, but i will do it right now because i am going to fail but i will be alright and maybe pull it out of the back with a little harder work on the later stages." Got it? You are not supposed to since this is supposed to be a convoluted story that your brain tells your brain.

P.s: The above behaviour is called PROCRASTINATION. You may have met this guy (or girl depending on who is reading).