Why does this stick like a waxing strip...

Lights out Alice,

Why does this stick like a waxing strip, enormously painful to remove yet unassuming when attaching itself.

I am unable to bring myself (actually my brain, which rules over me) round to tear off this bad habit(s). The common culprits remain : Procrastination, Inefficiency, Lack of ability to focus on work at hand and not pushing harder everyday.

What do i do? How do i get over bad habits? My presumption was it would be a long process and not much more. In reality, it is a long process with no feedback as to tell you if you are making progress or not. You have no clue if you are moving forward or falling backwards. Don't forget:

Security is mortal's chiefest enemy

When you are feeling secure, it is the time that you are the most vulnerable. But then again, the point of feeling secure is to lay down that heavy armor that you have been carrying diligently against bad habits for a long time, while the enemy (bad habit) is playing his strongest weapon that is time and patience against you.


Solution suggested: Find immortality (please don't, just know that it is a bad idea, you don't wan't to be here forever) or fight this enemy. Remain volatile, open to suggestions and ideas, improvement and criticism.

Lights out Alice!

What you need to know, yet somehow find ways to ignore it all the same

Lights out Alice!
Funny how things work out, for a while you have no blog post, and this today it happens to my second post.

I came across this answer while procrastinating with my work on Quora ( didn't get my reference, check out my first post today here: When will this fight end?)

The question was: What is the one thing do you wish you had known about life when you were in your 20s?

The following is the paraphrased answer from William Beteet:

Dear Young Bill,

1. Porn is Ruining Your Life - So install a porn blocker and give Joey the Password
2. Life isn’t a Rom-Com -You aren’t going to marry Carol, stop trying to earn love, if a girl likes you awesome, if they don’t stop wasting your time.
3. Your Parents Are Amazing - Call Them More
4. You’re Not Special - You make yourself special using two tools, discipline and courage.
5. Say No When You Want To - Learn to say no more. That’s how you focus, by saying no to distractions and people.
6. Stop Planning - You have these huge plans for your life. None of these plans work. Just pick the direction you want your life to go and cultivate skills that are going to make that journey easier.
7. Laugh at Being Jealous - You get jealous a lot, it’s not a big deal. When you do get jealous, say what you’re upset about out loud and start laughing. It will make you feel better and it stops you from taking yourself so seriously.
8.  Don’t be Afraid of Being Alone - Time alone isn’t something to run away from it is to be cherished. So work on those novels and screenplays, go to the gym and read books - don’t cry, cultivate skills.
9. Stop Drinking - I know blasphemous, but when you’re 24 you quit drinking and you’re able to have even more fun when you go out to party and you save a lot of time not being hungover.
10. Work-Out - In the future you’re really muscular, part of what’s keeping you from going to the gym now is that you think you can’t put on muscle, you can, so start lifting.
11. Listen to Audiobooks When You Drive and Walk - You waste a lot of time listening to the same songs, over and over again. Listen to audiobooks, you’ll learn a lot and sound smarter.
12. Learn the Rules of Life - Look at life as it is not as you wish it to be.
    There are unspoken rules in life, find out what they are and make them work in your favor. This means reading self-development books about relationships, discipline, mastery, economics and body language. Also talk to your Dad more (See #3) because he’s unbelievably wise and you’re unbelievably foolish.
13. Take One Risk a Day - These risks should be to make you better not worse (This isn’t a license to drive drunk), so email CEO’s and talk to pretty girls, you’d be surprised how much doing stuff like this will impact your life.

Bill your life turns out great, and you are on a path for success, but if you did these things earlier, you would have enjoyed life more along the way. These things will not only make you more successful, they will make you happier while striving for success.

Lights out Alice!

When will this fight end?

Lights out Alice!

I have been facing a tough couple of days fighting procrastination. These days ride on the back of a hectic (believe me that's an understatement) week of examinations. I screwed up those, which was highly likely given the sloth like inefficiency that I have fallen into.

I am a failure right now, of the worst kind, since the only thing that is causing me to fail is my head itself, the one thing that is always supposed to be on your side. I am procrastinating like pandas, yet worse than them in the way that I have an exam coming up again in a few days that is going to be the toughest of them all.

I need to get my head in gear, or find a way to push myself to. This has been rising for the past few months, and now my bad habits are spiraling out of control. I have got myself into a serial complaining disorder, serial laziness, sloth like procrastination, excuse giving, failing to meet deadlines and all other related sickening habits that an empty mind brings.

Wow, I feel real bad (utter bad feeling in my stomach, yet my brain is fine), and yet there is this part of my brain that JUST DOESN'T FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING. That's a sorry state to be in, and I tell you, my dear friend, this is a bad disease, it is very painful. It is painful in the fact that it has no external symptoms (dwindling work efficiency may be one) and no one can externally diagnose this problem or provide you with a cure for it. It is an internal fight that you have to fight for yourself and the one that is not won easily. Once this habit grips you, it is like an ink stain on a white shirt, a nasty reminder of the gloomy day that it happened.

The questions that one might have: How do you fight this? Well, it's easy, just get about doing your job and that should be it. But, just like any other addiction where all you have to do is quit taking the substance, it is not that straight forward. More so here since here you are fighting with the greatest enemy that one can ever have the misfortune of meeting, your very own mind. Nope, Hitler doesn't even come close. Your minds knows all the tricks, all the tricks for the tricks, the tricks to trick your brain, everything. It is like the only source code on the server of VIKI from I robot getting corrupted, only the fact that you can't kill VIKI by pulling a Will Smith, since VIKI in this case is your brain.

Hopefully, I pull through. Since the fight for every battle starts with a single step, I am going to take that step. End my blog, close my laptop, breathe and start studying for the impending doom like I mean it. I just hope I can survive this quick sand of the mind.

Lights out Alice!